On the plus side, not been very psychotic lately, I guess. Not sure what that is all about. I admit that psychosis is a mystery to me, mostly because, on some level, I still don't really believe it is my illness but rather, is me accurately perceiveing bad stuff in the real world. Insight problem, I guess. Surviving torture has really harmed my brain, apparently.

Not handling my business. Having a hard time remembering to take my meds, to eat, not even to mention, cleaning me and my place. Just realized I ran out of Abilify three weeks ago and never refilled it. I just forgot.

Very hard for me to remember what I am supposed to do, since I am all alone. There is just me and I can'r seem to remember. My partner used to help me with all this. Guess she probably did a lot more than I ever recognized. Should probably thank her for that one of these days.