I'm quite awake from the good zopiclone sleep, vyvanse and coffee.

Thinking about my chemicals keeps me in a safe zone. Idk if everything is as bad as the news makes it out to be but it seems like it's affecting people to go nuts.

I feel really mentally stable but the world is not stable. I could read history books and such but there's too many things to do. I'm scared that humanity isn't going to last. The economy is dead - The money I get is worth nothing now. No one has money - Rich people are fleeing to bunkers.

And people are dying of suicide and drug overdoses more. Families are fighting, no one knows what's happening, people are taking advantage of the system with insurance, bank, credit card fraud, claims - Police aren't doing anything as I've witnessed with cleaning up the crack house - Can't sell it.

The future of kids are gone, people aren't playing music at concerts, everyone is staying inside or spreading a virus - Second wave.. Who knows.

Businesses are just trying to get by - Distribution of wealth and trade is altered - Things we need are not being made, people are dying either way.

I hear blaring music and people shouting outside.. People are speeding in their cars, revving their engines - There's people pretending that everything's fine and I saw one guy on the news complain about people not abiding by the rules - "They're stupid" and all the conspiracy theorists are hiding out, posting things on the web - Too many stories - can't follow it all. We're all disconnected as hell like ants that have spread away from their nest.

No one trusts the government, it's losing control, houses are gonna be worth less, people will spread crime and drugs - Just earlier this year we feared nuclear war and get distracted. It's all trends and distractions for better distractions in the moment - It's like no one can focus on everything at once so it goes around in circles.. School shootings, mental health, working from home, stock market crashes, etc..

Idk