My mom says that I'm symptomatic and to stop watching the news. I told her that I said to my sister, "I'll be thinking of this crossing the road thing for days" and she said "Well good" and my mom said "She had good intentions and didn't think that you actually would".

Well here I am thinking about it. The OCD is really bad. I don't trust anyone. I can't walk outside because of that drunken idiot telling everyone that I threatened him with a plastic shovel.

I'm only making this as hard for myself on purpose it's like I'm torturing myself by even posting this.

So just ignore this it's not important. They're just thoughts.