I hope you are able to talk to a T about it. I know how hard it can be and like Kiya said, just try to write about it. Sometimes, when we can't talk about stuff or explain it in words, my T can either read or decipher what we are trying to say.

I don't think you are any of those bad, negative things. I think you are kind and caring.

Please take care and stay safe.

BJ