I’ve written in this thread

https://psychcentralforums.com/sanct...something-lost.

About having lost myself in the last 12 years because I believed in a higher power. I stopped listening to myself, which had never steered me wrong before.

Last night I got angry that I hadn’t asked my parents to let me stay longer so I could 1) find another part time job to support myself after losing a part time job due to a layoff and 2) find a suitable roommate.

I allowed them to railroad me out of the house, when it turned out they didn’t sell or move for a whole year. I was in a very vulnerable position and I was scared. Then my now husband said “come move with me and we’ll live together”. I had no great roommate options. I met several people and none of them were a good option for me. I posted on Craigslist for two months and got one lead that didn’t work out. I was really stuck and really desperate. I ignored the red flags I had written down in my journal. Or dismissed them because I was so desperate. Had I just paid attention to the red flags better, perhaps I would have fought to stay longer. I felt pushed out. I was put in a bad position. And they didn’t even say anything when I moved in with a guy I had known for only 2 months. They just wanted me out.