I wrote in "general" that I might be posting more. I appreciate everyone's kind replies, they did help

But deep down (from childhood sigh in case anyone doesn't know) I feel so bad and undeserving (although this is getting better, very slowly, I still am easily triggered to that place) that now I think I won't. In fact I think I need a cave break. So this probably is irritating, to me anyway. I've had some things going on IRL which have been making my depression worse.
I'm tired of it and this really is a whine