Well, today is a "normal" day for us. Meaning, we are going about our day together in a loving and sweet way. We lay in bed all morning doing our independent things on our phones (me on here and him on his game) while snuggling a bit and watching our favorite real estate shows. Then we went to the market for food shopping and now we're home just hanging out. Everything feels totally normal, like this is the way it's supposed to be.

It's killing me that he has NO clue what I am thinking of and going through right now, but I also wouldn't dare tell him that I have doubts about our marriage. I know what that will do and it won't lead to anything good. I'd rather keep it to myself completely, deal with it alone in therapy, with my friends and on here, until I come to some sort of resolution. But it's still killing me.