Dear @Rose76, we all know how much you loved him & always will. This is very sad. I hope you can find a way to put a peaceful feeling in your heart. You did such a wonderful job caring for him. I'm sure he felt very loved by you. And he wouldn't want you to be hurting. I think it's all right to feel like he's still there, in a different way. I wish I could give you a real hug.