I have my reasons. And why on earth would I make things worse during a pandemic when we're stuck at home together 24/7? We're trying to improve things... or he is trying to make improvements. I have to give him that chance. Plus, he should already be aware. When he yelled at me three weeks ago, I told him this is not the marriage I signed up for. Divorce is mentioned in nearly every fight. And why would I tell him that I have doubts when he is trying to make things better? It would only cause a fight, tension and distance.

I am approaching all of this in the way that I feel is RIGHT for me. Maybe another person would do things very differently. But I have to do what is right and most comfortable FOR ME.