((((((((((((((((freewill and alter))))))))))))))))))))))))) She is the one who endured so much pain for others to not have to experience what she went through. She protected you from what you could not protect yourself. I am sorry she is in so much pain and as you experience and get to know her you too are feeling what she has for so long. Maybe you can embrace her for all she has done and why. I know it is hard because I am sure her pain is intense. My heart goes out to all of you.

BB