It’s okay to not be okay right now.

The most important thing is that you’ve come to the realisation of who you are and you are gaining your own identity. At the time, you did what was right with your boyfriend. Don’t ever have any regrets.

Grieving is a complicated process. Grieving for the girl you will never have. It leaves a void, I’m sure.

When I’ve grieved for people in the past it’s been a long process. Not something that will resolve itself overnight. But I’m proof that y can move on and you can be in other relationships that will make you happy. Maybe not tomorrow and that’s okay.

Do you have a school counsellor you can speak to? This is a complex situation you are managing and you will need support.