I just have to rant for a minute. I am so miserable right now. I’m super irritable, my son is pissing me off for no reason. Just because he won’t. Stop. Talking. He’s always like this and it doesn’t bother me, but yesterday and today I just want to scream at him. I won’t because it’s not his fault, he just loves to talk. I just want silence. I am also super depressed. I just want to lay in bed and shut out the world.

Thing is, I KNOW it’s just PMS. I’m thinking I actually have PMDD. This happens every time I’m about to get my period. About three days before, I get so depressed and angry. Once I actually get my period it goes away instantly. I’m just trying to hold on until it comes. It’s late because my hormones were all screwed up from haldol. It’s been two weeks since I ditched haldol so I’m guessing my hormones are starting to level out again. Bring on the misery!

I want to go back on ortho tricylin lo. It helped a lot more than this stupid mini pill. My dr took me off of it because I was smoking but I’ve been smoke free since January so I hope she will consider it again. I don’t have an appt until the end of June though. For my annual.

Ugh. My eating is also out of control. I ate half a bag of cheese doodles at 10am. I just had McDonald’s for lunch (though no fries) and a chocolate milkshake. I want to eat everything in sight. I’m not even hungry I just feel like snacking. It’s maddening.

I hope this goes away soon.

Ok rant over.