My T this morning said “don’t they know how sick you are?” It kind of took me back at the time so I didn’t really say anything. But both her and my pdoc want me to quit working and try for disability. They think working is too much stress for me given the ptsd I have from my last job. My mood never stays stable I am always up and down, mostly down. They say my intelligence is the only reason I have made it this far without being fired. I never thought of myself as being very sick but given how many hospitalization and medications I have tried it really shouldn’t be a surprise to me. I have always been high functioning though so I have masked it well. I guess I should face reality and stop getting so frustrated which doesn’t help my situation. I just get such conflicting feelings about it.