Thanks Rick,
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If the therapist is leading you somewhere and asking specific questions to aid in the healing or get information that would help in healing..... Why would you refuse to follow or lie about the information? If it will help, wouldn't it be good to get the information to the therapist?

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I don't want to lie or resist treatment. In fact I am continually pushing myself to challenge my existing boundaries. I am just a control freak and would want to know that I COULD do it if I WANTED to do it. This knowledge would make me feel less vulnerable and more willing to engage in the therapy. I also like to be prepared for a difficult discussion. I would find it very difficult for things to surface and be shared simultaneously. By being prepared I mean that I don't like being blindsided by an emotional reaction, especially in public.

I know this is not the best attitude to have during therapy, however, it is where I am at this point. I really hope at some point I will be able to overcome my fears about being out of control.