I try not to think of it as an option. When I drink one alcoholic drink though, i go into a severe suicidal state. It happened like the last 5 times I had a drink of alcohol.



Maybe this isn't helping. Someone else should give a perspective not just mine.. expressing yourself and writing the thoughts down help too.. remember you're manic-depressive so the way you analyze the way you think will change and you'll change your mind about what is good and how things in your mind works, etc..

But dont think of suicide as an option. You can think about it a little - No harm in that. Sometimes I imagine

Sorry I'm trying to help I'm not in the right state for helping but hopefully reading this helps. If it doesn't discard and know you're great! Good inspiration.. I learn from you..