Drinking chamomile tea. Took 1/2 benzo. Trying to relax.

Idk if I need the stimulant anymore. Idk if its helping. I'll take it for now cuz I just want to be on the same meds for a year or two regardless even if they don't matter.

Cuz nothing really matters to me right now. It's all too crazy.

I get my invega injection early on Friday i think. I enjoyed the slight psychosis it's like low enough to switch between the two, not low enough to go to one bad side and not high enough to suppress creativity etc - But it's bad for my mental health and stressful.