Thanks you two! I guess I'm gonna try it out (If I feel well enough). Even though the anxiety feels bad, my gut feeling tells me, that I should just do it.

So what if it's not going to work out? So what if it'll take me a few tries until I feel confident enough for a relationship? Months, years even? It doesn't matter, I have all the time in the world. As long as I don't rush things and listen to myself it's probably going to be fine. Even if it's hard sometimes