Beth Rags, I am glad you plan to email your therapist. When I read downandlonely's suggestion about writing out what you want to express, and have fully acknowledged, I thought "Yes, that's what I would want to do." I can't speak for everyone, but for me, writing can often be more of a release than talking.

If you do email her, you might want to ask her to acknowledge receiving and reading it. That can be done during a video session. Certainly an email response "Received" would be grossly inadequate in my book.

I totally understand your feelings about the video sessions. I have almost wished I could have a week off from them with mine. My therapist never seems to take time off. Even before the pandemic, any vacation she took seemed to be short and fall inbetween my appointments with her.

I'm sorry you have such difficult experiences to process during such a difficult time