i don't know if i am seriously ill....i have been treated for prostate cancer...i have had open heart surgery....i have a fib....plus many small things breaking down...and daily i deal with my mental illness...

so i am dreading what is coming...and it depresses me more...so i need to share this end of life stuff....most people don't want to hear this...but here i am...

thanks mopey for asking about this...and i still am on THE BUS...not dead yet..