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Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25
So I’m not sure how to stop obsessing when I’m trying to go to sleep. I do not think it is related to my mood (except when I wasn’t sleeping). It just...is. The topics rotate. For a few weeks it was my relationship with my late husband. That switched to planning a non existent wedding and wondering when/how/if RS was going to propose. That seems to have eased. But now it’s moved in to how awful I was in the past and how many people I hurt during episodes, how many hospitals I’ve been in, what it was like in the group home, what I wished I would have done differently.....this is familiar because it was my obsession a few months ago too. I don’t really know how to quiet my mind when I’m trying to sleep. Maybe I’ll bring it up in IOP tomorrow
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Hey, wildflowerchild, cannot recall if you meditate. When I am racing or psychotic bad, which happens a lot, I find that if I focus only on my breathing, my breaths, that it is really hard for me to focus on that crap. I always get pulled away to it, but I just bring myself back over and over again. I am not good at it, but it does quiet me down big-time. I don't even take any anxiety meds any more and I have horrible anxiety. Horrific. But I detest Klonopin and it is the only thing that works. I do much better treating my racing and psychosis by breathing than with drugs--when I am in an acute state.
What about headphones? People at the state hospital rely hard on them and they really, really help people. There are many comfy ones and you do not have to spend $400 to get good ones. I'd say a nice set of phones and good music is worth as much as a good antipsychotic, and I am not even joking. Totally serious. I just got a very solid pair for 8 bucks. Happy to help you find a pair, if you like. I used to be an elder type on a busy headphone site for a while...
What about one of those seashore sound makers? Surf? Rain? One of those might help, too.