Mine vary. Often, when I am psychotic, it's old trauma beign relived and experienced as current. So, I think I am being tortured all over again. That was 8 years ago. But when my brain gets going, there is no stopping it.

Other times, I relive other people I feel mistreated me. I never tell anyone off. Unless I am manic. That is part of why writing this book about the hospital has been so good for me. I can put down my feelings in a calm way and lay them out.

Usually, rumination is a sign of manis or psychosis in me.