I haven't just removed the rose coloured glasses that I once wore as a happy, outgoing person I seem to have thrown them on the floor and run them over with a convoy of trucks.
I have realised that the only people in my life that will ever really love me are my parents. I haven't been able to have children and my siblings and I have never had a close relationship. With age I have realised that my friends that I have stood by etc wouldn't do the same for me, apart from my current partner every Man in my life has only ever been interested in me for sex. And the Man I share my life with now regularly tells me he hates me, tells me it's his house and has and will kick me out bare foot and in only a night shirt but I should be thankful so far he has then thrown car keys out after me so I'm not on the streets.
I became disabled after an industrial injury so being honest with myself....... my future isn't a pretty picture so how do I keep dragging myself out of bed and fight the dark depression ???????????