Physically I'm still in full health and hoping to keep it that way.

Mentally I have a bunch of things besides my bipolar. Anxiety, schizoid/avoidant traits, depersonalisation/derealization disorder, some trauma issues. But to be honest I'm not so sure anymore how to tell everything apart because everything feeds on each other. Anxiety gets worse with depression but can also trigger it. Same for the trauma and the dissociation. Because of the personality traits I need a lot of space and time alone and I get extremely stressed out if I can't have it (like in a house full of kids) and that stress then triggers bipolar episodes. In turn, depressive episodes increase my need to be alone even more. It's such a tangle of vicious cycles that it might as well all just be one big blob of craziness. Bipolar is the most tangible one and the one that causes me the most problems so I just try to focus on that for treatment. I feel like if I could just get my bipolar episodes under control then I could deal with everything else.