Ruby, yes, it is traumatizing to lose one's job, for certain. But I still hear you not taking responsibility for what happened at Arby's. You say your supervisor there hurt you. You still don't see or acknowledge that your stalking behaviors caused her to act that way towards you. You have yet to take full ownership of what you did at Arby's to create that situation which got you fired. You're never going to learn in this case. Stop trying to gain your current supervisor's attention and adoration. Just focus on your work and on getting your work done.