I know. I've tried that once too. When I look back on it, I'm glad I didn't get in. I would't have been good and it just wasn't me.
This time around it's not quite the same. I feel a bit bummed. But I expected it. I hope I'll eventually end up in a job where I can find meaning and be happy. It shouldn't be that hard, even though I often feel it's impossible for me.

Like you said, we can't see the blessing in disguise when we're in the middle of it. It just feels like we missed out. Only years later can we see that it was actually a good thing.

What state do you live in Mopey?
Hope you're well.