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Old Jun 03, 2020, 09:50 AM
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Originally Posted by bluebicycle View Post
Has anyone ever felt so angry that their anger has made them even angrier? Because that's how I feel right now. It's a vicious cycle.

I guess I am angry over the fact my anger doesn't make sense in the first place. For example, I am so angry that I cannot concentrate on anything (including concentrating on distractions!) and that in turn makes me angrier, out of frustration.

Besides meds, what helps?
When I become legit angry, it can spiral out of control. So, I must work very hard not to ever get there. When I did the other day, and sent off a rage-o-gram to a very prominent attorney who was a **** to me long ago, I remembered all over again why that is so crucial for me.

In my book about the hospital, I describe a scene where my next door neighbor became so angry I literally could not believe it. I had never seen anyone so fully consumed by rage. I watched as he got worse and worse and more violent. When they took him away and sedated him, I just sat there. What I had just seen was not even a human being. He was pure rage.

I try to temper my comments and notes with wisdom, to the best of my ability. It does not always work for me.
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