I'm sick of my family. I've had all of them I can take. The quicker I get out on my own the better off I am. I'm so tired of it all. Let me start with my mom, she is so confusing. One minute she is griping about how she is paying for stuff and then when I offer her money or talk about moving out she says you don't have the money or no you don't have to move. It changes every other day or week. One minute she is griping and then the next minute she is trying to keep me here. I feel like a caged animal. She has put me in a bigger cage so that I can fly around but yet she still hasn't let me free to spread my wings. I know she wants to protect me but I want to be free. Its still a cage its just bigger.
Then there is the fact that everyone tells everyone my business. I tell one person how I'm feeling and they go tell everyone else but if I were to do that I'd get a 30 minute lecture about how I need to keep things private. So why is it okay for them to blabber my personal embarrassing stuff but its not okay for me to do it? For instance, my brother is going through a divorce and I told my cousin and i told my cousin because she asked. yes, I shouldn't have told her and I admit that. But what gets me is that my mom told 2 other people and no one is freaking out about that. Do I admit I was wrong? Yes. But why is it okay for her to do it but not me? Why is my sin any worse than hers? She did the same thing I did the only difference is that it was her and not me. I'm so sick of it.
I love my family but at the same time I need time a way from them. I know that probably sounds terrible but its true. I can't really get a way from my mom because I still live with her. I'm just so tired of their crap. I don't know what to do.