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Old Jun 03, 2020, 11:24 AM
FluffyDinosaur FluffyDinosaur is offline
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Originally Posted by BirdDancer View Post
Mixed episodes have been a major feature of my bipolar 1 disorder. Or what would often happen was that I'd have an elated mania or a pure depression that would transition to the other "pole" in the form of a mixed episode, often doing so at the peak of the type of original episode. In my case, the right medications were crucial in easing the mixed episode. Sometimes I was lucky to reach baseline stable, but other times I'd switch to a more "pure" form of depression or mania. It depended on the medications. I have found that some medications are a bit better for handling mixed episodes than others. Some medications as part of my cocktail, were for me no-nos. I'm a little reluctant to declare what I believe are the "good medications" or bad ones for mixed episodes, because we're all different.

I do think that therapy and practice of coping skills/methods have been important adjuncts to the medications. I guess I've used ones for both depression and mania at the same time, as the medications do their work.

Yes, I've also noticed episodes sometimes changing character. I believe this current one started out as euphoric hypomania, which changed into depression, which turned into a mixed episode, which then went into overdrive when the covid-19 situation hit.

For me, a major factor (maybe the most important factor) in coping well is having stability in my life. I need to have faith that I have my therapist, she's looking out for me, and I have those appointments no matter what. They're what I cling onto when I'm having a tough time. I need my own space to work where I work on my own schedule, things like that. Right now everything is disrupted and it's the worst. I just desperately need my therapy sessions to not only continue but to be there solidly and reliably. Right now I can't feel that kind of trust anymore and that saddens me a lot.