Gosh, I am sorry you've been through and are still going through all those things BDPpartner. It's awful.

There are a lot of ways a person can address their depression and this site has quite a number of suggestions. But the first thing I feel you should look at is the fact that you live with someone who is verbally abusive towards you, tells you he hates you. I know relationships can have their ups and downs but having someone telling you regularly that they hate you will not make you happy. It's a terrible weight, a dark shadow always there when you're in your own home. What you need is support not abuse.

If it was me I know what I would do, but I'm not you and I don't know your full circumstances.

Perhaps talking with your doctor as well, will give you a direction in terms of dealing with your depression. And your parents too, they sound like very caring people.

Stay strong and hopeful and don't give up, please. Things can always change for the better, BDPpartner.