Congrats on the five months! I just got wo years last month myself.

My issue was not desire it was routine and cravings, and I will shamelessly plug Campral (Acomprasat) it was miracle drug for me.

After about twelve hoursof the first doses and remaing ETOH free for a few days I quite literally stopped thinking and craving a drink.

Do I think about it and all it's pleasures from time to time...of course, but the meds and the meetings have turned drinking (ETOH-Ethyl alcohol) from a single life controlling obsession into a collossal *Meh*.

If you start to obsess or crave the booze look into this medication the craving and the thoughts dwelling on the pleasure an indication of a glutamate imballance.

It's actually a manifest form of anxiety that even a Benzo is ill suited to treat.

Good luck!

~Stiv