I know I'm changing. I will ask and point out to my pdoc tomorrow, I hope, that the antipsychotic meds are not worth it anymore. I've been on too many and had too many bad reactions and side effects. It is time for me to get off that class of meds and see what happens. I know I'll be fine or I may need a short term medication but not every day. I have noticed that I have more hope now. Like things will start to change. I did email my t, and he wants a full discussion but it won't happen until the June 13. I'm on my own. I hope I get support on this decision, and not a look of are you nuts, you just got out of the hospital. All I have had for the last at least 6 years is more hospitalizations and more failed medications. I haven't had progress and I've been stuck!

I'm tired of this constant trial and error. It's time to let the tools work that I have learned for behavior modification. I know I have this, but I can't do this alone.

Besides, I have had a few auditory hallucinations, and have not been helped by medication.