I'm tired both physically and mentally. I've faced nothing but trauma and abuse since childhood till now. My parents over protected me . I can't remember a time my mother could walk right or wasn't sick. My older sister has always been abusive mentally and physically. Almost 6 years ago my mom died suddenly from upper Respiratory failure and sepsis . She had MS and went to a nursing home when I was 15. I never got to have a normally childhood thanks to family illness. Fast forward to now I have no driver's license, was sexually abused by a guy I knew from Facebook and my sister finally moving out. My boyfriend doesn't understand I guess how to help me and tells me to just forget things. I'm so tired of reliving things in my sleep and feeling like I'm falling in my sleep and being woke up from it. I just want to be able to sleep and get better. I'm tired of drama, and want to be happy.