However, once again, I am getting myself into a tailspin over his dark haired, dark eyes women comment long ago. He said at one point that he prefers dark haired women with dark eyes. I have light brown/dirty blonde hair, with blonde highlights and dark eyes. I am not "dark haired". EVER SINCE THEN, I have felt SO insecure about his attraction level to me, fearing that he is MORE attracted to other female types with darker hair than mine.
I hate that he said that to me. WHY would he say that to me, is my question, when he knows I do NOT have dark hair????????? I feel like he wanted me to feel insecure and "less than" what he truly desires. WHY else say something like that to me???? Who the hell says this kind of thing?
This issue creeps up now and again for me, and it has again just now. And I'm working myself up into being upset about it, all over again.
I am never going to get over this. I am never going to feel comfortable because he said this. I feel like this is yet another reason to freaking divorce him.
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"Twenty-five years and my life is still trying to get up that great big hill of hope for a destination"
~4 Non Blondes
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