I'm a man 30 years old from Hungary.
Since childhood I've always been fascinated with executions and beheadings. I got this weird fetish. I regularly watch movies, comic books where I think it's erotic and I masturbate to them.

I don't like to see blood or a real beheading. I don't watch Isis execution videos.
For a few years I made drawings that display beheadings and share them on Deviantart. Some people seem to enjoy them and I got more than a 100 watchers.

I wouldn't hurt anyone or point knives at women. I'm sure. I couldn't hurt a fly.

I just wonder if it leads to sexual disorder or some complications.