@divine1966, perhaps, but it's the fact that it was even said to begin with and the repercussions that statement has had on me, which have been severe.

@TishaBuv, he doesn't say he thought I had dark hair, he says he considers me to have dark hair, when I really do not. I mean, in some pics, my hair looks blonde! Because I dye it... other times, it looks darker. My natural color is light brown/dirty blonde.

And he is VERY astute to details, especially about a woman's looks, I've noticed. I think he was into me to begin with, but I do wonder if I got a "snow job" in order to get me to marry him.

Yes, he married me, but clearly I am not his ideal woman based on that comment. Then again, he's told me several times that I was/am his "dream woman" and that I was/am the "most beautiful woman" he's ever seen. Was this all just a snow job though so he could lock me in?

These are the thoughts I have, and it makes me insane.

I am starting to turn a corner on the notion of suggesting therapy BEFORE the next blowup happens. I may need to address these issues sooner than later to help me decide if I am staying or going. Screw money. I will figure it out. I don't want that to hold me back. I really don't, even though it may not even be realistic.

I just know that these issues are all building up inside of me, and it's getting very hard to contain it all.