You cannot go back even if you want to so don't worry that your life will be the same as the just-good-enough one you had before. It can be better is why we try. The scenery always changes and we can't see ahead; if we'll feel better or even worse next.

We try because in better times we can build a house that might help protect us in worse times and good, comforting habits always protect. I'm a good waiter and can outlast bad times such that that has gotten to be a habit of mine and helps protect me in bad times. Practice "good' habits, especially when they're hardest, and they'll pull you through to better times.

The time I was closest to suicide, I randomly thought of and realized I was late making my six month appointment to get my teeth cleaned at the dentist; called and did that and that made a lot of difference in my really bad situation! There was something on my calendar for the future, one more thing holding me here and to think about instead of my own immediate depression and problems. It changed my perspective and outlook ever so slightly but that was all that was needed to pull me back from the precipice.