I know you prefer yourself thinner but 140b isn’t chubby. You make it sound like women can’t be hot if they are over certain weight. “When I was hot and not chubby” implies that when you are chubbier (which by the way 140 isn’t chubby) you can’t be possibly hot. Why do you have such views?

I don’t think a guy who says he wants to touch you did it because you are hot (and you are of course) but because he is kind of trash. No decent people act this way no matter how hot a woman looks.

Let’s face it no one is going to look hot forever. We all age. Do you see yourself with your husband in old age when all the hotness is gone? Focus on a deep bond that will sustain you till the end. Is there enough bond there?