Hey, guys. So, been doing some soul-searching today. Maybe a bit down today, maybe that is why. But, you know, just being honest with me, I just do not really perform at a very high level at all. Oh, sure, I can write, when I am not too out of it. But as far as living life? Not good. My place has been quite a mess for weeks. I don't keep up with the dishes. Bathroom needs to be cleaned again and I have no interest. Long as the sink and toilet work, I just do not care what anything looks like.

As I have recently shared, I forget meds all the time. Forget refills. I am working on maybe a pillbox and a google phone reminder. Maybe that will help. Not riding my bike at all. None. Never leave my apartment, unless absolutely necessary. In theory, going to our staggeringly awesome rose garden would be good, but I don't seem to be able to care enough to do it.

Anyway, I am not taking care of myself in my activities of daily living, is I guess maybe what I am trying to say. I don't know what to do. I don't have any help. My best friend, who would do anything for me, lives 3 hours away in Seattle. My daughter does not live with me and she is only 12, anyway. I am just struggling to live independently, I guess. It is really hard for me.