I think that my mean post was relatively “mild” considering the circumstances and how I was feeling. It was not on pc. And I was not reprimanded... it’s a pretty nasty site but I’ve been on worse . I said something about a person who ghosted me and mentioned a diagnostic label I thought she almost certainly had. I think she maybe also has “severe avoidant pd” co morbid with something else.

I feel bad for having hurt her. And it’s not because I fear retaliation, she isn’t like that. So possibly I was wrong about her ...

I think that the severe mood swings and depression I’ve been experiencing lately contributed to my “out of control” post. On the other hand, if I was actually a “mean person” I could have been a LOT meaner, and got away with it. But I get NO satisfaction from hurting someone who has unintentionally hurt me... or possibly who has even intentionally hurt me in a moment of anger.

I couldn’t understand some of her behaviours. I privately felt quite judgmental towards her. I also felt quite hurt by her. I did not share my judgmental thoughts about her with other members on the site. A lot of them are quite “paranoid” at times and a lot of harm could be done. And has been done by other members from what little I have observed there. It isn’t a healthy site. I genuinely wanted to be supportive and true. But many there, for whatever reason, could not be either of those My family of origin were not supportive or true. I try to engage with people who appreciate my heart and my true intentions.

I guess I could send her an olive branch.

“bad paws”