I have the exact same feelings, and it feels silly to own my past as being traumatic. I struggle with the word "survivor". Survive what? Why does everyone keep calling me that? Like you said, I wasn't in a war. I wasn't trapped in the twin towers during 9/11.

But once you own it, and start to work on it, you see the effects. Then you can begin to grieve the loss of time you could have spent being free.

Good luck!