Is anyone else paranoid that they will get fired because of their illness? Like all this week I have barely done any work because I can’t concentrate and I can barely get out of bed. Luckily I am teleworking so I can take a nap here and there. However since my work production has dropped so much and I so scared of getting in trouble or fired. I know a lot of it stems from the ptsd I suffered at the hands of my old job but I just can’t shake the fear. I don’t feel secure at my job. Is this normal when you feel really depressed? Is it a result of my ptsd? Is it just everything together? I want to enjoy work again. My old job for 3 years kept telling me I wasn’t good enough and that I couldn’t do the job. I got a complement for the for time in 3 years about a month ago and I didn’t know what to do with that. I kept waiting for the “but”. I just feel all this worry is causing extra stress on me. This is why my T and pdoc want me to quit. I guess I just need to know if others have these fears or am I completely paranoid.
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