Got my injection. The pharmacist said it's true that it will take a while for the paliperidone to build up in my system. I took a 5mg olanzepine when I got home.

I might have to keep taking olanzepine for a while.

Not suicidal anymore. I took 1 and a half zopiclone, an olanzepine and 5mg valium and went to sleep.

I was explaining my psychosis to my sister and mom but I was slurring my words. They didn't judge me.

I feel bad for blaming my mom again. I was dealing with illusions (Not delusions) like a trip with my mind and reality.