Good job, blue!!!! I hope that new MS helps fast.

I give me psdoc a suicide update at every single visit. Where I am with it. How bad it has been, how often. So on. I am able to do this without worrying about being committed because I have made a firm commitment to him that I will not actuall ever commit suicide. He believes me, and he should. It is against my religion, so, not eveen an option, no matter what. Kind of like wanting to kill the people who tortured me. Did I dream of it? Of course, everyone who goes through what I did does. But it would never happen--would be a huge religion violation. Plus, it is wrong.

Hang in there!!!!!!!!