So I'm chatting with this friend from the office I used to work in... A friend I have feelings for. We would usually chat(and sometimes talk) into the night and stuff like that, and somewhere along the way, I kinda fell for her. I never told her that I have feelings for her, but the way we talked, she used to respond to me like a girlfriend... at least that's how it felt, anyway(even though I've never been in a relationship before, but I just know). Yesterday at about 12:30 or something she kinda has fun saying that she was talking to her boyfriend, but she actually wasn't even talking to a boy. And later, she tells me that she has a boyfriend and that it's been going on for four years. I know that I'm two years older than her and everything. But it Hurts... It seriously Hurts. I feel so embarrassed and angry at her or at the fact that she had a boyfriend and feet like crying. I've fallen for girls before, but not like this. I can't even chat with her properly now because of this... And I don't wanna lose her. I'm scared any communication with her now is just gonna burn this whole bridge down... But I'm also scared that the lack of communication is gonna have the same outcome. I just don't wanna lose her... Has anybody been through stuff like this before? Because I Do Not know how to deal with this stuff.