Oh honey I'm so sorry. I'm actually going through a lot of the same. when people wont listen let alone drs you feel alone . If you have insurance keep trying to find a dr who listens . I know it may sound strange but texting a crisis line maybe very helpful . I actually had myself this morning. Just don't give up the fight. I think I can speak for all of us here when I say we're here and understand and care for you.