I really don't have friends. My close relationships are only my immediately and a few other family members who I try really hard to keep in the loop but don't do well with that. I was thinking about friends in preparing to answer this question, and I realize that I don't know the last time that I've had a friend. I really don't. It's been probably over 20 years. That's should be embarrassing right? I guess I'm not really embarrassed though. It feels a bit lonesome, though. I think it is a defense mechanism though.