Hi all. I am feeling down and ruminating and obsessing more. Some of it is probably sadness and everything over current events, and problems in society. But, it might also be hormone related or depression. I am worried I am going to constantly be kind of sad, depressed, and emotional if I stay on this birth control. Yet, the idea of going back to monthly PMDD is also not great. I also feel like a poser sometimes because I seem like I function well enough mentally and physically to the world, and most people seem to quickly forget I have issues as a result. Then I feel like I just come off as lazy or like I don't care to be involved in things, but really sometimes getting through the day is tough. Although sometimes I question if that's true or it's just a mindset and really I should be able to do more.
I guess I need to keep reminding myself that I do a decent amount considering and that I've made progress. I just feel isolated sometimes from my peers and community and have for a long time. Although I do have some good friends, but most are in other states right now. Anyways, I sound like such a downer. Just in a weird mood. Sending compassion.