I kinda hate existing. I don't know if that makes me depressed or not, I certainly feel more wired and energized than down. It's just this breathing thing, it's unbearable. Like right now I don't like having a body and feeling every little movement within it. Feeling my heart beat, my blood circulate, my lungs inhale and exhale,etc. it's driving me crazy. I know I brought this upon myself, and I probably shouldn't even be writing this.