I just don't know anymore. I think maybe she just isn't mature/stable enough to handle talking about her issues. I threw her a softball question about her body image issues and she didn't want to talk about it.

I'm struggling to accept that I have to share my feelings here in an anonymous public forum. I'm so sensitive to issues of infidelity that even this feels like I'm not being faithful to her.

As a dude, I feel weird working on emotional issues. I contemplated reading romantic books or something to get my needs met. I'm very much not into that stuff, but I know that sexual fantasy can be an outlet for excessive sexual energy that a partner can't help you release. Safer than cheating. So wierd. I feel so weird right now. Maybe not being able to go to the gym is lowering my testosterone? Maybe I need to just go smash something? Just kidding.