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Originally Posted by cashart10
My t has suggested I write a book about my bipolar because it is very “typical” bp1 with psychosis. I have thought about it because I love to write, it’s probably my biggest talent, and I would really love to advocate for mental illness (bipolar disorder in particular). The problem is, my mom is so strongly opposed to me sharing my story that she has actually become angry anytime I’ve suggested it. She is very worried that if I share, especially the details, that it will have a greatly negative impact on my friendships and life in general. I HATE when my mom is upset about anything to do with me and I do see her side a little. Should I share my story without her blessing? How can I get past it?
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I really relate to this, cashart. I have written and am editing a book about my time in the state hospital, which, natrually, must include information about a number fo family members. Some of it is quite dicey, in terms of trying to walk a line between faith to truth and what happened and not further hurting people. With time and reflection, I do hope I have found a path that is fair to all, including, of course, me.
As I have stated, I was terrorized and tortured for two years by my police department, who do this all the time, even though teh USDOJ is on their *** about murdering mentally ille people over and over. This is discussed in the book. Those people are going to be livid with me and will very likely come after me again. After ten years of refelction, I have concluded that it is more important to my recovery to tell this truth than it is to continute to live in silence. Silence begets evil. It is a necessary ingredient. If they kill me, I am totally good with that. At least my children and loved ones and you guys will all know that I told my truth. Screw the haters. History always gets it right in the end.
So, I say to you, if you feel compelled to write thsi, go for it. There is always a way to navigate these churning waters. But your mother is very likely not going to be very happy with you. You just need to decide how much that matters to you.